Classic School Girl

1. I got kicked backed in the sixth grade because I was too young to go to middle school. They also told me I needed to go through puberty first.

2. Contrary to popular belief, I’ve never kissed a boy, ever. 

3. Also never had a boyfriend, ever. I dont really want and or need one though.

4. Im not proud of being Latina at all what so ever.

5. I have like, wicked low self esteem.

6. I dont have a best friend, but I want one reaaalllly badly. I dont have many friends what so ever, and i dont know why. Before moving here, my life couldnt have been any better.

7. I see a therapist. And its the only person I can honestly talk to.

8. I’ve tried to run away like, twice.

9. I think Moving to the United States is the worst thing anyone can do, so if your considering it, go to France instead, or Monaco, no taxes.

10. when I graduate, I’m moving to France and never calling anyone or coming back, ever. Or speaking English ever again.

My chronic sinusitis has been taking the best of me these past 6 or 7 months. I absolutely hate it. The painful headaches and the not being allowed to drink an Advil for the past two weeks have been the worst thing ever. To top it all off, they have ruined my week, and its Tuesday. Last week was so great, it was only bound to become horrible again right before December. Another year gone by, I cant believe I’ll be 17 next month. I hardly look 16. Today at the library a buncha sophomores where in the biggest shock of their lives when I told them I was a junior. What I hate about it is feeling so old and useless and like my life has past me by without me even living it. Your supposed to remember 16 as long as you can right? I’d rather forget it. I hate my school and everyone in it, which inst allot since its about 300 kids, mind you that its a middle-high school in a ridiculously small crappy town. This is the main cause of my misery this year. The school and all. Today I had a test in English that I know I failed. I also had a really stressful test in ccd class ( thank God they’ll be over by Friday). Tomorrow I’m going to fail my French test and today I got a call from the school that I wanted to transfer too, telling me that I couldn’t go in this January but I can start next September  as a junior. How stupid is that? Why would I wanna keep myself behind? Apparently they didn’t like my grades from last term all too much, without even asking me to explain anything about how terrible this past fall has been. I feel as though I have nothing to look forward to in life since, with my grades, I doubt I’ll get into the college of my choice and I have no life what so ever. I should have just died last week, Thanksgivings was going so well. I really hope my parents will let me stay home tommorow if I ask them too because I just cant take it anymore. I don’t think its normal to be a junior in High School and to feel like my life is already over.